Strangers?

I was shown something that somewhat upset me, the other day. While I am still pining about lost love, it seems that the "ex's" girlfriend was not totally happy about their relationship. I decided to read her post as I was kinda bored and felt nosy.  She really slated him badly from what I read, which is a shame. I don't know the extent of their relationship, to be honest I don't care to that degree. But I do still have feelings for him and that is why it hurt. He was never bad towards me. He had his moments, but then don't we all? He was a gentleman for most of the time. So reading what she put came as a shock. It appears that time has changed him.. and not for the better it seems. I still don't understand why he can't even bring himself to talk too me anymore. I lost a friend there.

Moving on. Everything at the moment is muddling along quite nicely. I got a tax rebate last week so am just waiting for that to clear then finish off paying the holiday! Seems funny having more and more free time to myself. As I write this I am about to get ready for work. Makes a big difference not having to rush into work at 8:30am. The only thing I don't like about afternoons, is the fact I get back kinda late. But hey.. its only a couple of days a week and its not all bad I like my job.

Children thing things are getting grown. #5 son has one year left to go, so is revising for his exams like crazy. He has really matured in this past year. Baby girl has chosen which subjects she will take next year. She has a grown up attitude but lousy teenager moods!  All other kids things are doing well and keeping out of trouble! #3 Son is learning to drive. That came around fast. #4 Son is saving his money to buy himself a motor scooter.. its all go here at the moment!

Right I need to dash.. got to fill the car! Have a great day! x

Today actually.

I actually felt alone today.
Not sure why, guess it's Sunday and I just wanted to have a companion to snuggle up to and maybe watch some movies or a mass intact of Netflix.  Didn't feel like going out, and the kid things have gone away for the weekend, so I just sat and watched back to back shows. But it would have been nice to have someone too have sat with.
I realised a while ago what I am missing. Have tormented myself over that and have resigned myself to the fact. But I am going to remain true to myself and strong.

I been going to a Domestic violence support group, after a close friend suggested that maybe I might need therapy. Actually I hate that word. "Therapy" conjures up all sorts of thoughts..  Moving swiftly on..

Been looking at more holidays. When I get back from Barcelona, I am thinking that I might go on a break away with my friend. Then I am going to book another family holiday for the summer.That is providing my car doesn't cost me the earth when it goes in for a service next week.

Oh I see now why a certain someone deleted their original Facebook..that reminder page is an awful thing.

I think a visit to the doctors is in order. I seem to be overly tired of late. To the point that I put dinner on too cook and promptly burnt most of it cause I fell asleep.. Must be time for a jab..