I'm not scrooge.. but Christmas.. bah...

I have a lot of reasons to dislike Christmas... A LOT. To many too mention, but it seems that every year something else gets added and makes me dislike it even more.
A couple of them have made me smile and I have very fond memories of one in particular. But overall I have more dislike for this time of year then I care to mention.
So for this reason, I will be working and watching as everyone else "celebrates". I'll be watching the world pass by.

As of yet I haven't even started to make mince pies, which is a tradition in our family which I followed yearly for as long as I have been able to cook. Just seems no point to any of it now.

There are lots of things in life that loose the true meaning. Christmas is one of them. While growing up, it was filled with excitement. This was up until I was about seven years old. Then one Christmas, all the excitement, all the awe and all the innocence of that time of year, was taken away from me. After that the years end just rolled around. Gifts had very little meaning and became just brightly covered "thing things"

My gran dad died on Christmas day. This is one of the many reasons I don't like this time of year. I can bore you with the long list, but I don't want to make myself unhappy, 'cause strangely I have a deep sense of well being at the moment. I have a calmness and a sense of happiness which I haven't felt in a while.

I wont "be doing" Christmas this year, just like I haven't in a long time. I won't be wrapping six million packets, putting up a tree or even shiny decorations. Really is no point. I will have a Baileys on Christmas eve when I get home from work and enjoy the time off but that is all.

If you do then have a good one.,.if you don't them enjoy the time off and watching the world go by.

Above all else don't let this time of year get you down. xx 

Was your birthday yesterday. Wanted to say hi.. happy birthday.. play a silly video or game and just chill. Still feels strange after all this time. I wondered what you were doing.. if you had any Jager bombs.. Smiled to myself as I thought about giving you a cupcake for one of your previous birthdays. Strange how it feels like time stands still.

I Hope you had a good one. Everything you would have wished for. *shrug*

And time moves on... 

End of another year.

This year has gone in the flash of an eye.
I hope the next four and half years do that also lol, then my car will be totally mine!
Seriously this has been a very quick year for me. Seems to have been "my" year though. I finally came to terms with major changes that have happened within the past few years, death of my grandmother.. loss of someone I thought would travel through life with me.. One of my children finding his own way in the world and gaining his own place, job and not needing to rely on "mum" anymore. This year has had its ups and downs. But I am smiling on. I am looking forward to the new year, new challenges, new places, maybe new friends who knows whats in store for me?

I find that the more time I have on my hands the more I want to explore. A simple walk around my hometown uncovered a few things for me I didn't know.  Was refreshing to find out some local history from different perspectives.

Currently life seems on an even keel for me. Though I hate to say anything positive cause it seems that's when everything comes crashing down.. Jenga!!

For now I am just going with the flow.. enjoying job.. enjoying family and friends.. and the cloud that was on my shoulder seems to have shifted for now.

Stay positive and always look on the bright side of life!!