Just another thought...

It's the things that make you go mmmm..

Kisa was a gift to me <3 Thank you for the memories..

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

It doesn't feel that long

I get curious at times, I know I shouldn't but when something interests me I want to know more. For instance, I had forgotten when I started to write this blog. It shocked me to look back and see my very first post was in Oct 2006. That's ten years ago.. 10 years.. that's a life time!! I had aspirations that this would be a project of mine that would die out. I have mistaken myself, and although I don't write as much as I used to, I think this is one thing I have probably stuck to!

So happy birthday even if it is belated wishes blog, you have shared my good times and bad.. and I hope we continue on our path!! 

Saturday, November 12, 2016

And breathe...again

In my job I work mainly with the guys. I am usually scheduled on the mid shifts which are from 1 in the afternoon and I usually finish at about 9 at night. Sometimes I am lucky enough to get earlier shifts, and I can always turn shifts down or get them changed if I have to. I find that I am really the only female in our department that works these shifts. The other girls usually work morning to afternoon (up until about 3-4 pm) when they then rush off home and play mummy and wifey.

I had an interesting conversation with one of the guys this evening. We had just had a drive off, and I was in the process of pulling the paperwork out when he spun around and asked me if that is how he sees me, as some kind of secretary. Then he went on to bemoan about how he likes doing paperwork and doesn't see it as "women's work" i was taken aback to be honest. I am used to paper woks and whatever having previously been an administrator it just comes naturally. I didn't think that he would want to do it! I handed it over and let him continue. Afterwards our conversation went onto the male/female divide, marriage verses being single (he is a married man, with a baby soon too be born) and female mechanics versus men. Was overall an interesting shift! What we did deduce from all the conversations is that women while physically weaker in some aspects, may be able to give a guy a "run for his money" in this day and age it is all about equality. There are somethings that as a women we cannot do obviously but he has been very surprised by my enthusiasm apparently!

I like my current job and I am looking into training for something along my original nursing background, something I can do alongside the job I currently do. More on this to come!

For now I potter about in my car, "mums taxi".. and spoil it rotten.. new hand held hoover, car decal "children on board"..wheel pressure gauge and inflation.. this thing has something new almost every week!

Life goes on!! Bye for now

Thursday, October 27, 2016

Tears of an Angel..

Was given this link.. think the song is lovely.. thought I would post here..


Monday, October 24, 2016

Another year nearly finished

Wow. It is near the end of October. Eight weeks until Christmas. Another year almost over.
I get paid the end of this week, am going to be booking a holiday for early next year. I am taking the three youngest over to Spain. I made my mind up! It might mean that I max out the credit card, but you know what, it doesn't matter.
I have just had to have the car fixed after someone or something decided to chop at my tyres. I was distraught I love my car!!
Work wise everything going good. I seem to have caught the eye of one of the main managers, he keeps trying to get me too change departments! I'm happy where I am.

Strange how time passes. The memories don't fade though. I'm smiling as I sit here remembering somethings. Frowning as I remember others, but all in all I am glad that I can sit here and have time to reflect on things. Never take tomorrow for granted. Try to always do as your heart tells you. Time is so limited and it is horrible to regret anything.  I regret times wasted, such a shame.

My children are almost grown. They all have a certain amount of independence. This is nice. I don't feel so tied in anymore. I can almost just "take off" as and when the need arises! I have three left at home, after the eighteen year old wanted to experience the big bad world on his own, good luck!

Anyway just unloading... hoping this settles my brain so I can sleep!

Night all,
Look after you!! xx 

Friday, September 30, 2016

So that happened...

It is near 4am. I am in that isn't really deep sleep, but you are not quite awake. That sleep where a little bit of noise can awaken you.
My 'phone is on the table next to the bed as per usual. It suddenly makes a loud sound which I do not recognise. This immediately wakes me up to look at why it is making that noise. I know it's not an alarm, I know it's not a text. It turns out to be a message on instant chat via google. One from a certain someone who has decided not to talk too me since he tossed me away.

We "chat" about several things, but I think his main intention was to inform me that he has got engaged. I doubt I will hear from him again. I am not sure why he felt the need to inform me of that, though I was quite surprised at myself when I just replied "grats". I didn't feel angry or hurt.. just somewhat displaced I guess. I am left with the thought, "why did he feel the need to tell me that" He did close with a sentence about how he would like to chat again. I don't think that will happen though to be honest. He reckons he don't hate me, I on the other hand think that is an untruth. *shrug*

Looking over my "love life" I sit and shake my head. I still think it isn't for me. I don't understand what I do wrong, and as no one seems to care about informing me I think it's best I don't bother. Seems I end up setting up guys to be better for someone else.

A little while on from this and I got a message via Gmail that "you have been removed from the *** family circle" It was an app that allowed you to see where other members of your family are. He added me and to be honest I haven't used that phone in a while. I'm not sure why it stung in all honesty I should be expecting to be removed..just feels.. real now I suppose.

I have long since given up the idea that one day he would swan back into my life and tell me that everything will be alright. I guess younger people are more resilient. Who knows.. maybe its third time lucky for him. I wish him well.  

Thursday, August 18, 2016

It's been a while.. again!!

So it is near the end of August. The four youngest are going to be having birthday's within the next few days. One of my son's shares a birthday with someone's brother. I wanted to pass on my wishes, then remembered I can't. *shrugs*

Anyway..time moves on..

Been away on holiday. I love being able to book time off and know I can have a holiday. I am really liking my job!
Can't believe all the kids are finally teens and that the older ones will be making a stand for themselves soon.. I am feeling a tad lost if I am honest!
Loving my new car.. just need to be brave enough too take it on a long haul drive! Watch out mother I may head your way!!

Got invited to dinner with my boss and his wife. That was a rather interesting scenario.. but was pleasant enough. They wanted to know how come I am single though.. Long story short, I told them that there isn't a guy brave enough to be my prince! I am happy being a princess alone =D

Grand baby number 1 is about to start "big" school! I cant believe how quick that has come around. I haven't seen grand baby number 2. They have moved so I need to go and make sure that they are settled afore I go over and see them. Life goes on!

Anyway I have a 7am start in the morning. It has gone midnight so I am off to try and get some sleeps!!

Have a good one and be safe out there!! xx

Friday, May 27, 2016

All the single ladies.. put your hands up..!!

I have decided that I am probably better off on my own. I seem to accomplish more, and seems that I am more determined when I have only myself to answer too.

I tend to give my all when I am with someone. I forgo anything that I may have planned, choosing instead to accompany my companion and placing any ideas I might have had on hold.
I am currently single, and in that time I have passed my driving test, renewed my first aid certificate, changed jobs, booked holidays abroad and started a course of studying again. These are things that I probably would not have contemplated to seriously had I have been in a relationship.

My last relationship I have come to realise, was mainly focused on my then partner. I would rush home and practically wait for him to log onto his computer. (Although we were "together" he was in another country, so the internet was our communication tool. For the most part it worked, I guess, but was very draining and tiring. When the time come for him to make a big commitment, he backed out. So I guess that it was all very one sided in the end.) There I would be for most of my time, even sleeping with him on the other end of the screen. When he found out he had an illness, my first response was I needed to be with him. I actually did make plans unbeknown to him, too fly over while he was in hospital, but these fell through as the day I was due over, he was released. I never told him. I didn't want to worry him. Through our relationship there were things I done, but changed at last minute as he had other ideas. At least now if I want to be spontaneous, I only have to reason with myself.
Besides, being in a relationship is to tiring. I thought the idea of someone to join in your adventures with you is supposed too be a good idea. After the previous relationships I have had, I am passing up on this idea. Emotionally tired and wrecked, I don't think I can spend another moment trying to have someone too "fit" with.
Being single around friends who have partners is difficult. Being invited out to dinners and such like and feeling like you are a "third" wheel is somewhat awkward, but it is refreshing being able to hold your head up high and have a laugh.

For now and the foreseeable future, it is just me, myself and I. Yes that thing called love has scared me, scarred me and literally forsaken me. But I am not alone in this journey through life. I have my children, whom throughout my ups and downs have been close to me, I have my friends and I have my job. These things.. will see me travel far.