Just another thought...

It's the things that make you go mmmm..

Kisa was a gift to me <3 Thank you for the memories..I also had BooCat adopted for me..Thank you for everything

Monday, January 16, 2017

Blue Monday

Apparently today is supposed to be the most depressing Monday of the year. It's something to do with realising you have spent all your money for Christmas and not being able to keep too your New Years Resolutions (or something along those lines), Well I'm not blue!

Lets see here.. January 2017 and already I have booked a holiday for this year and its paid for... Already started packing as well.. though I do need to buy some new suitcases. I have spoken about the possibility of changing my working hours ever so slightly..seems I am doing to many late's as my little girl is missing me.. And it's only the second week into the new year!

I'm not to sure what too expect of this year.. I have no major plans of yet.. I'm playing with the idea that maybe I should look into buying a house for myself of sorts...but that is only an idea at this stage.. Maybe after I finished with the car...

So I have launched myself into this year.. New Start New Year sort of thing. I watched the fireworks of Big Ben like I do every year..said my toast to the world.. and kissed my teddy! lol Sad I know.. would be nice to have a companion, but I guess its not that important. One day my "Prince" will come.

For now I leave the new year to play out.. whatever will be will be!

Look after you!! xx

Sunday, December 18, 2016

I'm not scrooge.. but Christmas.. bah...

I have a lot of reasons to dislike Christmas... A LOT. To many too mention, but it seems that every year something else gets added and makes me dislike it even more.
A couple of them have made me smile and I have very fond memories of one in particular. But overall I have more dislike for this time of year then I care to mention.
So for this reason, I will be working and watching as everyone else "celebrates". I'll be watching the world pass by.

As of yet I haven't even started to make mince pies, which is a tradition in our family which I followed yearly for as long as I have been able to cook. Just seems no point to any of it now.

There are lots of things in life that loose the true meaning. Christmas is one of them. While growing up, it was filled with excitement. This was up until I was about seven years old. Then one Christmas, all the excitement, all the awe and all the innocence of that time of year, was taken away from me. After that the years end just rolled around. Gifts had very little meaning and became just brightly covered "thing things"

My gran dad died on Christmas day. This is one of the many reasons I don't like this time of year. I can bore you with the long list, but I don't want to make myself unhappy, 'cause strangely I have a deep sense of well being at the moment. I have a calmness and a sense of happiness which I haven't felt in a while.

I wont "be doing" Christmas this year, just like I haven't in a long time. I won't be wrapping six million packets, putting up a tree or even shiny decorations. Really is no point. I will have a Baileys on Christmas eve when I get home from work and enjoy the time off but that is all.

If you do then have a good one.,.if you don't them enjoy the time off and watching the world go by.

Above all else don't let this time of year get you down. xx 

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Was your birthday yesterday. Wanted to say hi.. happy birthday.. play a silly video or game and just chill. Still feels strange after all this time. I wondered what you were doing.. if you had any Jager bombs.. Smiled to myself as I thought about giving you a cupcake for one of your previous birthdays. Strange how it feels like time stands still.

I Hope you had a good one. Everything you would have wished for. *shrug*

And time moves on... 

Sunday, December 04, 2016

End of another year.

This year has gone in the flash of an eye.
I hope the next four and half years do that also lol, then my car will be totally mine!
Seriously this has been a very quick year for me. Seems to have been "my" year though. I finally came to terms with major changes that have happened within the past few years, death of my grandmother.. loss of someone I thought would travel through life with me.. One of my children finding his own way in the world and gaining his own place, job and not needing to rely on "mum" anymore. This year has had its ups and downs. But I am smiling on. I am looking forward to the new year, new challenges, new places, maybe new friends who knows whats in store for me?

I find that the more time I have on my hands the more I want to explore. A simple walk around my hometown uncovered a few things for me I didn't know.  Was refreshing to find out some local history from different perspectives.

Currently life seems on an even keel for me. Though I hate to say anything positive cause it seems that's when everything comes crashing down.. Jenga!!

For now I am just going with the flow.. enjoying job.. enjoying family and friends.. and the cloud that was on my shoulder seems to have shifted for now.

Stay positive and always look on the bright side of life!!

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

It doesn't feel that long

I get curious at times, I know I shouldn't but when something interests me I want to know more. For instance, I had forgotten when I started to write this blog. It shocked me to look back and see my very first post was in Oct 2006. That's ten years ago.. 10 years.. that's a life time!! I had aspirations that this would be a project of mine that would die out. I have mistaken myself, and although I don't write as much as I used to, I think this is one thing I have probably stuck to!

So happy birthday even if it is belated wishes blog, you have shared my good times and bad.. and I hope we continue on our path!! 

Saturday, November 12, 2016

And breathe...again

In my job I work mainly with the guys. I am usually scheduled on the mid shifts which are from 1 in the afternoon and I usually finish at about 9 at night. Sometimes I am lucky enough to get earlier shifts, and I can always turn shifts down or get them changed if I have to. I find that I am really the only female in our department that works these shifts. The other girls usually work morning to afternoon (up until about 3-4 pm) when they then rush off home and play mummy and wifey.

I had an interesting conversation with one of the guys this evening. We had just had a drive off, and I was in the process of pulling the paperwork out when he spun around and asked me if that is how he sees me, as some kind of secretary. Then he went on to bemoan about how he likes doing paperwork and doesn't see it as "women's work" i was taken aback to be honest. I am used to paper woks and whatever having previously been an administrator it just comes naturally. I didn't think that he would want to do it! I handed it over and let him continue. Afterwards our conversation went onto the male/female divide, marriage verses being single (he is a married man, with a baby soon too be born) and female mechanics versus men. Was overall an interesting shift! What we did deduce from all the conversations is that women while physically weaker in some aspects, may be able to give a guy a "run for his money" in this day and age it is all about equality. There are somethings that as a women we cannot do obviously but he has been very surprised by my enthusiasm apparently!

I like my current job and I am looking into training for something along my original nursing background, something I can do alongside the job I currently do. More on this to come!

For now I potter about in my car, "mums taxi".. and spoil it rotten.. new hand held hoover, car decal "children on board"..wheel pressure gauge and inflation.. this thing has something new almost every week!

Life goes on!! Bye for now

Thursday, October 27, 2016

Tears of an Angel..

Was given this link.. think the song is lovely.. thought I would post here..