Another year.

So yesterday I became another year older. That's another year closer to a "0" year..I went all out though and had fun..which will continue this weekend, hehe.. Anyway so a girlfriend and I went out and had a "girlie" day. Went shopping for outfits, had lunch and had cocktails and drinks. I finished it off by coming home and having a bottle of Bailey's and a pack of Cheesy Dorito's. Pure bliss!!! lol.

And now to "catch up"

Had a court hearing earlier this week. With my divorce finally though, the problem I have now is getting the "Ex" to vacate the premisis. He keeps using the excuse that he is "trying to get" back with me, and that by him staying here, it's showing me that he dosn't want too go. I won't put the answer that I said to him here.. don't think it's "humane" enough. I just think that he is dragging his feet. The result in court was that he has an order to leave by 8pm on the 9th June, with the property becoming soley mine on the 10th June. He still hasn't made any progress on packing anything though, and it seem's he wants to be spiteful.. he seem's to be "eating me out of house and home" literally. I came back to empty cupboards yesterday..

But I breathe a sigh of relief because it is nearly over. Then I can concentrate on getting my house "in order"

I finally planted my daughter's sunflower in the garden, the day I came home from court..I am watching it grow from strength to strength..this is my "symbol" if you like of a new begining. I am hoping that in a symbolic way I can grow just as that sunflower is. Time will tell.

I want also to wish my aunty congratulations. My cousin has finally had a baby girl, after years of trying. My aunty is a proud grandma!! Love to you all and hope things are going well <3

So my kids are getting bigger, little miss has an attitude that is as big as a house! Two of the boys are going to camp next week with the school..great joy I can tell you.. I remember last year when one went.. he came back full of mud! But it's an experience for them, so I can't complain.

And me? I just plod on and see what tommorow brings. With no-one now holding me back I feel that I can get things I have wanted too get done.. done finally.
Yesterday my friend was asking me about relationships, and wanting to "get hooked up". I think with hand on heart, I can say that nothing is futher from my mind. I don't have a "desire" to want too rush out and "find someone". I think that I was married in a bad relationship for far to long. The thing was I never realised how bad it was.

So I will live each day as it comes. Because I know that in my heart the only thing that matters is my children and myself right now. And I hope that God will guide me through the rest.