Quick update

It would be nice... in fact it would be amazing to be with someone. Especially since I have this trip coming up to Barcelona. Would be nice to cuddle up to someone on the sandy shore. But I resigned myself to the fact I am probably going too stay single, a choice of my own doing.

As my children are getting older and becoming more independent, I look at my own future and wonder where to next. The world is my oyster as they say!  I don't want to end up like my mother. Disabled, feeling alone in the world and unable to be as active as she would like. I still have a cruise planned for myself. My friend and I were discussing some places which we would like to visit. Watch out world! I am thinking that I want to get a camper van as well at some point.. travel around this island and see some more of it.. The need to keep busy is very real!

Say something.

Take me back to the night we met..



Thanks to my son, I been binge watching 13 reasons why.

Life Update!

I think that I have finally closed another door on a chapter of my life.

I have a birthday looming, and I'm not really expecting anything to be honest. My eldest son took me to dinner at TGIF's today and told them it was a birthday meal. They presented me with birthday cake and sang a crazy birthday song! Put a smile on my face, I was happy with the balloon!

But yeah back to that chapter of life..I been going to Domestic Violence Support group for a while now. I wanted to understand why I let myself get into what turn into abusive relationships in one way or another. Even when I can't see it, guaranteed I am allowing myself some sort of  "being used". So I got therapy. Turns out that I needed to love myself, my whole being and not just "settle" for someone being nice to me. Easily flattered I think she said. I guess I was as no-one was ever really that nice to me. But now I know I can be a little bit more guarded.

I found space for a box of memories. Am not quite at the stage where I can "dispose" of them. I guess one day I will.. not yet though.. I recently got rid of a big black bag of things.. that was difficult enough. And time moves on...

So Holiday looming, and I have seen a real nice sofa set I am going to be buying when I get back! lol I haven't gone yet but I am planning on what I am doing on the way back! Still keeps my mind off of things I don't want to think about!

I am currently gazing out the window waiting to be able too move my car outside. It is currently parked two streets away, and I lubs my car when I cant see it I worry!

Well that's the update I guess.. I am tired its been a long day so I am going to get tea and a snack and cuddle down and read my book!

Have a good one!