No more.

No more poems,
No more songs.
Wondering how long I can go on.

No more phone calls and long goodbyes.
No more long, deep sighs.

No more just spending time together. Does this ever get better?

I miss the I love you's
and the things we used to do.

All this hurt and all this pain, don't think I could ever do this again.

Just sitting now, taking time, and still wishing you was mine.

I think I just need to say, I miss you, in every which way.
©Danni M

Time...

Why is it when you feel sad the time drags on?

When you are having good times.. enjoying yourself or just generally in the best of moods, it seems that time flies. An hour just seems to float past in the blink of an eye. Yet that same hour feels long and hard when you really want the time to move along.

I was sat at the comp last night, watching my eldest son mess about on his MySpace page. I was glancing over his shoulder occasionally, not because I had a particular interest in what he was doing, but because I was waiting for a person to chat too me on my IM. And time dragged on, and on. Then when the person did appear, it turned out that they were waiting on me to be there and that they now had too go home. Typical.

So here I sit today, waiting on time again, and boy does an hour feel like the longest trek in history.

Night.

It is 04:18. I am absolutly shattered, extremely fatigued and just plain exhausted. I fell alseep earlier on at about 9:30pm or so, and woke up at 11pm, whereby I have been content on staying awake... regardless on what I try and do. =(
You know these times I often sit and read. It is nice to be able too sit and have no noise around me, listen to the dawn sounds. But it also leaves me totally exhausted, as the household never stops, and it is not like I can "take a nap" during the day.

I do not know what is on my mind, keeping me awake to this degree. But I have been like this all of the week. As you can imagine.. it is making me pretty irate. I rang the doctor this morning to ask him what he thinks. It annoyed me even more that he thought that I was just asking for sleeping tablets. I don't want to get into artificial sleep, just want a normal sleep pattern to return.

"Try a warm milky drink, a nice relaxing bath and read a book, just before you settle down. Maybe you are just a little tense as the day ends and need to unwind."
So I take the suggestion, and voila it put me to sleep as I said above. But now what do I do? Do I have to go through that again in order too have any more sleep tonight?

I am yawning my head off, I was laying down, just staring at the ceiling. Incedently I counted all the cracks in the ceiling.. think it's time for a repaint.. It is a nice peaceful room.. there is nothing to distract.. apart from the dawning of the day now.. and I have too try and grab some sleep before my household wake up in the near future. But how? =(

Suggestions gratefully received...