Don't say I told you so.

Last night of all nights I got dumped (again). I am currently going through more than my fair share of stress and aggravation. Having become a new grandparent, dealing with my son rejecting and then getting totally confused within his own relationship, certainly put more on me than I could have ever wanted. I also, though proud to say it, am somewhat dreading starting my new job with the 2012 Olympic team. That and the fact that my now 17 year old is in a strange relationship, my 13 year old has started to act up and the Ex is still the biggest waste of space on this planet. You can see my dilemmas.

I somewhat tried to explain this to Mr America. He seems oblivious to any of my concerns, worries or even conversations. It has always been like this though if I look back. His answer.. "let's watch a Christmas film"... I don't really celebrate Christmas.. so then a whole drama ensued..I reluctantly loaded the film.. start watching it.. get told "I don't want to watch it now.. you have an attitude".. I go afk to sort out my children, in the hope that things will cool down somewhat. Couple of hours later I return to be told basically that I ruined his Christmas, and now he doesn't want to talk too me until after the holiday period. I promptly reply "don't bother contacting me at all if you mean what you just said..." and log off. I blocked him on my messenger thing as well.

So yet another reason to hate Christmas. All the child hood memories.. the fact that it is 8 years today that the only really close man in my life died. (Love and think of you always Grandad) And the fact that nothing ever happens to me good at that time of year.

I don't want to feel sorry for myself.. but what have I really done in life to deserve all the mistreatment and neglect I get "served".

Have yourselves a good one..