And so here it is. .Merry Christmas...

It is Dec 22. Another year about to end. It is currently 11:16pm my time. I am sitting reflecting on the year. I want it to be over. I want the memories in my head to disappear. I hate Christmas time even more. I have more reasons to be sad at this time of year. I hope that next year I can finally shut the chapter of my life. That chapter has moved on, why the hell can't I? I knew this was never going to be easy for me. I don't trust someone like that. Serves me right, I shouldn't believe in "happy ever after" No such thing as fairy tales. Rainbows and Butterflies only exist in the books and films, why should they be in real life?
So I sit here. Everyday I say good morning, and good night. I don't think you do, I don't think you even care any more. I am completely lost, but I don't blame you. It's my own fault again, for thinking and trusting and letting myself believe.
New year, no tears (I hope) Onwards and upwards...
Here's to the future, 'cause I am hoping I have done with the past...