How long?

It has been an age since you said what you did.
It feels like an eternity.
I have started sending your things back, it has not been an easy feat but it is a quest I will complete.
I don't cry daily, but the pain is still very raw. You still don't acknowledge me, only when your mother tells you that it is polite to say thank you.
Every day I say good morning. Every day I say good night. I am still lost. Every worry I told you of, everything I said I hope wouldn't happen, it did.
You was wrong, I did fall for you. I remember lying in your arms that last time, I saw something in your eyes, and I wanted to say "don't hurt me" I wish I had.
I wish I knew how I can stop the hurt, I wish I knew why I let people hurt me.
Most people are in for second chances, to at least say "right I know what I did wrong there, lets try it this way".  You are not even willing to try. You just cut me out like I have never existed.  Even Prince Harry reunited with a girl that he dumped.
I have had several people tell me that your heart wasn't really in it in the first place. You just wanted to come to London and not have to pay hotel fees. I feel used when they say things like that. I just want to hold you.
I don't know what I have done. I am not getting closure by you ignoring me, it is messing with my head. I read somewhere that just by cutting someone off it can actually mess with their mind. I agree, I have so many thoughts going on in my head I am surprising myself that I haven't had some kind of breakdown.
So you don't love me any more, or whatever your reason is, but I am a human being like you, can you not at least explain. Just saying "I am sorry for hurting you" is not an explanation. That is a statement for you to feel better, for you to not have guilt in ending things.
I don't know what I am going to do with the love I still have. The memories, the times I remember. All of this hurts so very much.
I wish I knew what to do now.