Time goes on..

I have been real busy in this thing called life. The older the children get, the harder it seems to keep my brood together. Having the eldest here with his family also takes a toll. I didn't think it would, but with the children on school holiday, and with the extra people here, it certainly places a extra amount on me that I never realized before. Though he works, he doesn't get paid a tremendous amount, so I don't expect him to really contribute financially. But that leaves me to pick up for the things like bathroom necessaries, bills and such like. Don't get me wrong, if he has a little extra, he gives me a little something. But that isn't a regular thing. I need them to move into their own place now. Life in general for me seems to have come too a stand still. My hysterectomy has been postponed till October, I cant have the stomach surgery until I loose another 4 stone at least, which at the moment seems impossible.. I been at a constant weight now for four years.. haven't moved up or down. But I am hoping to change that. All the children and I have bikes.. so it is going to be a summer of bike riding! Mr America, came back over at the beginning of this year. He left the week before my birthday though.. he says he is trying to come back before the end of this year, but now he's playing the stock market, he don't seem too have time for anything really. I am still not really sure about us as a whole